Mmm... vegetables and cheese sauce

Yay! Today was my first experience at making white/cheese sauce and it went quite well I must say. Came home feeling quite like doing something interesting for dinner and was a bit depressed to find that we had only 2 small potatoes when I wanted to do mash (to put on top of mince stuff and veges, mm) and then my second resort was to the pasta which was only a small amount. So in the end I cooked the pasta, did some lean mince with button mushrooms and boiled some brocolli and carrots together then put them in a dish with some cheese sauce, crumbled crackers and cheese on top. Yummy :D

Anyway, I have a distinct lack of revision happening in my life recently... I think I should go and attempt to amend that... Well, we'll see anyway.. First exam 14th May!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Awesome

Yay! I saw Tannya for the first time in about 9 months or something, so it was really cool. We talked for roughly... four and a half hours... We had corn chips, mc flurries and fizzy drinks :)
And it was all good because on the internet we don't really talk much but in real life it's like we saw each other yesterday and so we just continue the conversation about everything for ages...
She's amazing and I love her. <3

'Convince Me'

(Unless you're Dan or Kat you won't understand the title)
Most spontaneous thing I've ever done was done yesterday. I was meeting up with Kat, Dan, Tash, Clarky and Nat but Clarky, Nat and Tash couldn't come in the end so it was just me, Kat and Dan, and we couldn't really think of what to do. After about an hours discussion and going back and forth from places we decided (at 7pm) to get travelcards and go to London... I didn't really think very much at this point or I would have thought 'I should ring my parents' or 'My parents would say no', because my mum didn't even want me going an hour away with several friends let alone London with two friends... But yeah, since I didn't think, we went into London, wandered round, stayed to well lit populated places, generally with police or security guards around (see I am responsible!) and yeah. We had a look round a few areas (including one with a bridge - between Waterloo and Embankment - nice bridge :P). Lol, just remembered that when we went back to the train station (and debated where to go next) we saw a whole bunch of guys (about 5 or 6) dressed up in women's clothes (/I think one was wearing a dressing robe?), wearing high heels, and one of them randomly only wearing women's underwear, so that was strange but quite funny - Dan was like 'Lets make friends!'; but of course we didn't really - we went off again down to other end of the station, and on the way Dan wanted a 'bagel' (cute gay looking guy at the bagel shop).The best bit was when we were down by the London Eye and they had these beautiful blue lights in the trees and there was a little playground next to it, so we went on there and messed about before walking round by the river and stuff. Then we went back to the train station and it was only on the way back when I started to get worried or whatever. But talked to my parents and they're not happy but they seem to be coping with it better than I thought they would (seeing as sometimes they seem to think I'm about 7 years old and not responsible at all...). So that's good.
But yeah... it was uber fun :) (I just feel a bit guilty)... Lol, I think that I was born with the majority of Dan's conscience and he just doesn't really have one. Not that his parents would/did mind as he seems to spontaneously leave the city regularly...
So yeah, if you see three people singing (Steps, Avril, anything we thought of...) and possibly running around like maniacs, hugging trees and climbing on playgrounds then you know who it is...

x ILoveKat&Dan x

Grr...

Parents are being all buggage because I was trying to convince Dad not to try and teach me about GUIs (Graphical User Interfaces) and Command-line Interfaces. Yes I need to know them, but if Dad tries to teach me then I'll be more confused. Carol also got pissed off and left because we were 'debating' loudly. I think she's probably PMSing/annoyed about something else because that's generally when she reacts like this about other stuff. Normally she's quite okay about stuff, but I suppose she often gets annoyed with me and Dad arguing/shouting at each other. I think the arguing is probably mainly because me and Dad are almost always tired and when I'm really stuck I try to get Dad to help me with Computing but then I find it frustrating because I can't properly understand what he's trying to get across as it seems to me that it's always in a roundabout sort of way. I suppose we just clash, I love him but I sometimes don't like him.
The annoying thing is it means I don't really have anyone to help me as my teachers aren't exactly that great at teaching me - I might just not get their teaching style - and when I ask questions sometimes I don't quite get the answers I was aiming at, I get something slightly on a tangent. Ech. And exams are coming up soon, yipee...
I totally love music. I've just been listening to it for a little bit and it's totally made me feel better (And it doesn't make me put on weight like chocolate :P - Yay, an alternative to my usual 'comfort food' thing, good good... Let's see how long this lasts...)

Total fave for today is: Fall to Pieces by Avril Lavigne

<3

Uni and Music (but not together)

The uni bit of this blog is from/adapted from an e-mail I just wrote to Sarah, as I can't be bothered to re-write anything...

I'm not actually that stressed which is in one way good and one way bad...
Good because I'm not too worried/losing sleep etc.
Bad because I'm not doing much revision, I don't know the stuff as well as I did last time, I stressed last time and got fairly good marks... so yeah.
NEED TO DO REVISION.

Went to Surrey University today to see a whole bunch of uni stalls and talk to people about courses and get prospectuses. PAIN. The prospectuses are reeeeeeally heavy. And I had 21 of them (most people only had 10-15... but that's me). Ouch. Had to carry them home and everything too. I had several plastic bags to carry them (the slightly more classy type but still just as easily ripped...). Got one 'one side shoulder' backpack thingy - a bright yellow plastic version, from Aberystwyth University of Wales (which I may go to if I decide to do computing...) and that managed to hold out til I got off the bus close to home. Then it broke and I had to carry it hug-wise to lug it all the way home. Ech. But they will be useful. Especially since I don't know what I'm going to do at Uni. I even got a prospectus about studying at a Uni in Australia or NZ (NZ obv if I choose one). So yeah. I'd probs go to Vic, Massey, Auckland Uni or Otago. And that's only if I go in NZ... there's a million more to choose from in London alone let along England as a whole or even Wales... (Probably won't go in Scotland or Ireland but maybe Wales... I like Wales, it's nice. Kind of like NZ. But closer.)

Avril Lavigne songs are awesome. Been listening to more recently, especially from 'Under my skin', have only heard one from 'Best Damn Thing' - Girlfriend.

[[Hey, hey, you, you, I don't like your girlfriend!

No way, no way, I think you need a new one;

Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend;

Hey, hey, you, you, I know that you like me;

No way, no way, no it's not a secret;

Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend]]

Oh yeah, great morals. But I love it.

Also like 'Nobody's Home' quite a lot, heard it for the first time a little bit ago...

[[She wants to go home, but nobody's home, that's where she lies, broken inside;

With no place to go, no place to go, to dry her eyes, broken inside;

She's lost inside, she's lost inside, oh, oh, she's lost inside, she's lost inside, oh, oh, ooo...]]

Very cheerful and uplifting I know...

It's good.

I need chocolate. Or something else comforting. I feel all depressed/nyer and stuff. Not quite sure why. Well, music is making me happy.

[[Be yourself, who are you?

Who knows what could happen;

Do what you do, just keep on laughing;

One thing's true, there's always a brand new day

I'm gonna live today like it's my last day]]

This is the bit where I put various lyrics on here and try to find things to write in between to seperate them.

[[I am small and the world is big, but I'm not afraid of anything;

How does it feel to be different from me, are we the same?]]

Something that amused my brain greatly today was my attempt at humming and 'humming' (inside my head) two different songs at the same time - Set fire to the third bar (Snowpatrol) and Nobody's Home (Avril). I think they'd make quite a good mash up. Possibly only when they're back and forth rather than combined but yeah.

[[I don't want to fall to pieces, I just want to sit and stare at you;

I don't want to talk about it.

And I don't want a conversation, I just want to cry in front of you;

I don't want to talk about it cause I'm in love with you]]

[[Want to know how you feel, want to know what is real, I wanna know everything]]

Oooh! Just thought about it - another fave Avril recently is 'Take me Away' it is goodly. Very :P.

[[All the pain I thought I knew,

All the thoughts lead back to you,

back to what was never said,

back and forth inside my head]]

Yeah - that was part of 'Take me Away' It's good. Trust me. Or maybe don't... your choice.

[[Well I’m not paralyzed

But, I seem to be struck by you

I wanna make you move

Because you’re standing still

If your body matches

What your eyes can do

You’ll probably move right through

Me on my way to you ]]

This is from 'Paralyzer' by Finger Eleven. Fantastic beat. You really gotta hear it. The lyrics are better with the beat.

[[Fully alive, more than most,

Ready to smile, and love life

Fully alive, and she knows,

How to believe, in futures]]

Flyleaf - Fully Alive. Good music.

Anyway, I'm going to run now. Away. From you. Quickly.

Argh!!!

Feeling dead. Just fell asleep for 3 hours by accident. Can't do my computing homework due tomorrow (but did e-mail teacher to say so). Was hoping to do something for Faye for her birthday tomorrow - not gonna happen. Want to wash my hair. At 9pm at night. *sigh*. Head about to explode. But too tired to really be that bothered. Myspace screwing. Just after I wanted to see that the person I accepted isn't a total loony. I think I know them but the problems went funny just after I accepted. *sigh*.
This is the bit where I collapse and just go nyer.
*collapse*

As a reference...

...back to my blogs on Computing. I did get the work done but I didn't finish it completely, still got to do testing and stuff but I can do that when I get back to college.
Also need to do revision on top of all the other homework that I... haven't done.
*sigh*
Well, that's life.

On a happier note, I watched Sense and Sensibility with Carol yesterday (while drinking milk and eating coooooookies) and it was rather good, if a little predictable (though Carol pointed out that this would be because we know how Jane Austen writes and things often turn out to be a bit different to what they seem). Though the title does give it away a bit - Marianne learns to use her sense and Elinor learns to trust her sensibilities more. Yeah, so it was quite good.
I seem to have right now developed a keen interest in the watching of Jane Austen films. I've now seen most of Persuasion (missed a bit of the beginning - on TV), Northanger Abbey (on Youtube), Most of Emma (on TV), Sense and Sensibility (borrowed from Auntie Sarah), Pride and Prejudice (owned by me - but I haven't seen the older version) and... I think that's it, I still have to see a few but they're very good :).

Well, I must go now and do useful things...

Mm... tasty

Peanut butter balls are nice. Just finished making them. All is goodly.
Made fruit crumble yesterday, tidied my room and did a little maths work.
So you see, some use is coming from my lack of social life these hols :P.
Still got loads of work to do, nyer. But oh well, that's life.

Read 2 awesome books recently (i.e. yest night/today); the first was 'Little Girl Lost', which is basically an autobiography type story of a little German girl (the writer) named Bärbel and her older sister Eva and their journey from Tabarz to Hamburg to find their mother again - at the end of/after the second world war. They met a lot of kind (and some not so kind) people and it is amazing that little Bärbel was able to survive that journey on foot (she was only 7 years old while Eva was 19). It's really touching and also shows the lives of some of the slightly luckier Germans at that time. I read this from about midnight til 3 yesterday night and finished it off this morning. Very good.
The next was the one I read today, this was 'The Wedding' by Nicholas Sparks, it's the sequel to 'The Notebook' and is about one of their children and her family, from her husband's point of view, it's really excellent, it's mainly about how the couple's relationship (their kids have all grown up now) and about how the husband realises that he hasn't been very expressive of his feelings and how he'd been brought up in a less 'love-showing' family than her and therefore he found it more difficult to show her love. He goes to Noah for help at times (Allie has passed away by now - Noah and Allie being the couple from 'The Notebook') and it's just really really lovely... And it also sort of makes you think a bit, about what is important to you and how you show people that you really do care about them.

Note to any guys (not that any guys actually would read this but hey): Important moral from 'The Wedding' - Do not forget anniversaries, strangely enough, girls actually care about them.